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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
9:00 PM
Be very glad my friends that I am in Florida and you are, well, wherever you are, and therefore don't have to deal with my spastic-ness in person. As a matter of fact if you wish to spare yourself the pain of venturing into the mind of a very stressed, very anxious Megan, then I suggest you stop reading. Still with me? Well, you were warned.
So I'm graduating this August. Originally my plan was to return to Columbus and take classes this summer and autumn, with the intent to graduate in December. However, housing complications have arisen, and now (simply put) I have nowhere to live come September. Not a big deal, right? I have been looking forward to getting my own place for awhile, and this simply pushes up the date by about three months.
...Except it's not so simple. I never intended to take classes full time AND pay rent on my own, but that's exactly what I would have to do if I stuck with my original plan.
And so what options am I left with? This is where things get messy, because I'm going to have a full year to do whatever prior to (hopefully) vet school in September 2009. And that's assuming I get in.
So here are my options, come September:
1) Move back home with mom and dad, and acquire a full time job in a veterinary hospital to rack up some experience for vet school.
Advantages:
-Save money on rent!
-Mom and dad want me home
-Close to family
Disadvantages:
-Can't bring Mutu (third cat)
-I'll be living with my mom and dad...
-Fewer vet opportunities in Cuyahoga Falls
-Necessity of finding a new fellowship. Goodbye Columbus friends/church!
2) Stay in Columbus and find a full time job
Advantages:
-Keep Mutu!!!
-Stay in fellowship
-More vet opportunities
Disadvantages:
-Far from family :( :(
-Expensive!
-Will need to find a new place to stay
3) Apply to OSU's College of Public Health, for matriculation into the Master's in Public Health program this fall (with a veterinary public health specialization).
Advantages:
-Financial aid
-I would stay in Columbus...see option 2 above.
-I would be in school for a full year prior to vet school! :) I'm a little worried about taking a full year off...
-I would really like my MPH (very advantageous for vet school/career)
Disadvantages:
-Applications are due by the end of May, which would require me to retake the GRE and find letters of recommendation by then.
-More debt.
-...Far from family, etc.
4) Look for another internship with a starting date in September, preferably in the zoo field.
Advantages:
-Continued investigation in careers outside of veterinary medicine
-I love conservation biology! :) :) Bring on the zooooooooos!
Disadvantages:
-A lot. (money, leaving Columbus/family, what to do with pets, etc. etc.)
5) Join the secretive ninja asassination squad that has been trying to recruit me for the past several years.
Advantages:
-I would make a kick-ass asassin
Disadvantages:
-I have a problem with killing people.
-Unless they're poachers. Must remember to ask about possible openings in Africa...
I guess the trick will be survive until the conclusion of this internship, and then figure out what I want to do. Unless, of course, I decide on option 3 (MPH), in which case I have a heck of a lot to do and not a lot of time in which to do it.
Sigh. Would someone please just tell me what to do?Labels: career, future, spazz, vet med
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Friday, November 02, 2007
9:38 AM
Oh my goodness. *_*
Congratulations Megan!
Congratulations again on your offer to participate in the Veterinary Medical Records Disney Professional Internship from January - June 2008 .
Your arrival date will be Friday, January 11th , 2008 and your departure date will be Friday, June 13th, 2008.
A little more info:
http://disney.go.com/disneycareers/internships/home.html
http://disney.go.com/disneycareers/internships/animal_programs.html
I almost burst into tears when I received the phone call. Unfortunately I was at the Columbus Zoo watching penguins for my ethology project, so extreme displays of emotion were out of the question...
But wow. Just...wow.Labels: disney, future
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007
12:53 PM
Things to do today:
- Class at 1:30pm
- Disney World panel telephone interview at 4pm
- Homework until the cows come home
I almost prefer the surprise interview technique. There's no time to think, panic, overanalyze, and freak out when you receive a random telephone call from a possible employer asking to interview you then and there. But this waiting thing? Sucks big time, my friends.
At 4pm today, my telephone will ring. I will answer it, and on the other end will be a panel of interviewers from Walt Disney World. And thus the dominoes of destiny will go a-tumbling down down down...
I've been praying about this, asking God to start slamming doors if this isn't what He wants me to do. The prospect of failure is therefore very real, and very frightening. I don't like failing, and I hate giving this to God and asking Him to manifest His will...because I know there is a very real possibility that this in fact is not in God's will. I could just take it upon myself, say "screw you God!" and do it on my own...but why in the world would I want to do anything apart from God? A sad existence indeed. And so my fate is in His hands.
I can take some comfort in that, at least. Nevertheless, the butterflies in the stomach are more persistent than ever...Labels: disney, future
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Thursday, October 18, 2007
12:21 AM
I’m young - and I love to be young!
I’m free - and I love to be free!
To live my life the way I want,
To say and do whatever I please!
Monday's meeting with my academic advisor = disaster, as expected. Seriously. I wanted to punch the man right smack dab in the middle of his smug little face. Came THIS close to it, too...
He's a nice guy, really. He just has no business at all in advising undergraduates. Have you ever had a conversation with someone who didn't understand that a conversation consists of TWO people engaging in RESPONSIVE dialogue? He didn't hear a damned thing I said the whole time! The man spent two hours telling me that veterinary school is a waste of time, PhD is the only way to go, and interning at Disney World is unnecessary and, like veterinary school, a waste of time. Pardon me, but when did I ever say that research is FOR SURE what I want to devote my life to? Must have been some other Megan, because I sure as hell never did!
So I went into this meeting hoping for clarity, and came out with a higher blood pressure, more confused than ever. He didn't even sign my application for graduation because, according to him, I need to "think about what we talked about". Ahem, don't you mean what YOU talked about? I was more just sitting there repeatedly reminding myself that the university does not look kindly upon violent undergraduates who punch out their professors...
Dammit, what now?Labels: future
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Monday, October 15, 2007
12:02 AM
Mutu, my hobo outdoor cat, has decided that he would really prefer to live indoors. Calvin, my domineering bully indoor cat, is NOT happy with this new arrangement.
And me? Well the more cats the merrier, I say! They're definitely a nice distraction from physiology...
I've decided that I am going to skip tomorrow's Animal Behavior class to do a bit of last minute studying before my physiology exam. Perhaps not the wisest decision, but there you have it. After classes, I'm meeting with my academic advisor to discuss graduation.
Yup. Graduation! Scary thought, seeing as I've lost all discipline when it comes to preparing for my future. Hmph.
Back to studying. :PLabels: cats, future
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Monday, August 13, 2007
10:31 PM
I am once again in need of an attitude adjustment. Lists usually help in times like these, so here goes nothing!
Fun things:
1) The beach is coming!
I will be spending the first week of September in (hopefully) sunny Holden Beach with some of my favorite people in the whole world.
In preparation for the trip, Marianne and I went swimsuit shopping on Sunday. I hate swimsuit shopping even more than I hate jeans shopping, and that's saying something! We were both successful, however, and I found the most adorable one-piece retro polka-dot swimsuit! I needed to find a one-piece, because I already had 2 two-pieces and needed something I could splash around in the ocean in without having to worry about any accidents. Even though the polka-dot swimsuit wasn't on sale, I decided to splurge. It's so very rare that I find a swimsuit I'm satisfied with! Thank you Macy's. :)
2) The Lion King
Michele and I are heading up to Cleveland on Wednesday to see the Lion King Broadway Musical...for the second time this year. Once again: I need a cheaper hobby. Still can't wait!
3) Kick ball game/Ice cream social on Thursday!
I don't know if I'll be back in Columbus in time, but if I am then I'm totally going to open a can of whoop-ass.
Not-So-Fun Things:
1) Vet school...errr grrrr arrrrgh aaaack.
2) I'm taking the GRE on August 23rd.
3) Work is killing me. Every day is positively mind-numbing, and I think this may be contributing to my apathetic mood lately.
In a sad attempt to cheer myself up, I have given myself permission to have a dance party by myself whenever I damn well please. Christina Aguilera and Cascada are current choice favorites, although Linda Eder's "Man of La Mancha" and "Big Time" are also euphoric (I'm sure drag queen Edina Starlight would agree with me. Oh the things you find on YouTube!)
I think I'll head to bed now to read a bit. I'm currently reading the newest Kitty Norville book by Carrie Vaughn, and I must say...there's nothing like a good paranormal mystery/romance!Labels: future, music, musicals, random
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Tuesday, August 07, 2007
9:02 PM
So it's 90 effing degrees outside, and I'm sitting here in my apartment with no air conditioning feeling sorry for myself. As I sit here writing and drinking a beer, I'm trying to think up an adjective or noun to accurately describe my current state.
Dammit, I don't even like beer.
Ah-ha. I have it. Discontent with a side of disgust.
When did this happen? I think it may have started with my little vacation home. When I'm away from Columbus, far from my friends and life here, something strange happens.
I forget.
That's all it takes for me to lose a grip on reality. Before I went home to Cuyahoga Falls, I kept myself insanely busy so I wouldn't have time to think. You know, about the fact that I haven't made a decision about veterinary school, my future career, and my perpetual single-ness. But when you're home alone for a solid week straight, with no one but three cats and a dog to keep you company, how can you NOT think?
And so I thought, long and hard. And in the end, I took three giant steps backwards.
Because now, unlike before, I simply don't care.
I've forgotten how to care, that I need to care. Hullooo Megan...you're taking the GRE August 23, veterinary school applications are due October 1st...oh, and remember God? Yeah, it takes two to tango.
Always daydreaming about something, worrying about everything, and doing nothing. Procrastination? No, I think I'm paralyzed...
So now what? Well, I can continue drinking this beer (still tastes gross, by the way), or I can get up off my ass, call my friends, read another chapter in my GRE study book, and start preparing for my future.
And that, my friends, is the problem.
Because I'm going to finish this damned beer.Labels: future, rambling, reflection
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Thursday, May 31, 2007
8:19 PM
Ah yes. It's the Thursday before finals, so I think some procrastination is in order here. I am, of course, in true Megan style, spazzing out over all of my classes and the appraching summer "break". Aside from some random natural catastrophe, I will most likely pass all of my classes in spite of the sleepless nights I know I'll spend stressing and crying over finals. But worrying, spazzing, freaking out, stressing...procrastinating...it's all a part of my nature.
And did I mention I'm also decision-impaired? Yeah, decision-impaired.
This quarter has been...enlightening, to say the least. Most people enter college not knowing what they want to do with their lives, and graduate with at least some vision of where they want to go or who they want to be. I, of course, must do everything backwards. Who says taking the road-less-traveled is the brave or noble thing to do? I'm off the fucking path and through the frickin' looking glass to the Wonderful Land of Oz, no yellow-brick-road in sight. Whoop-di-doo, yay for nonconformity.
So what am I left with? A Barron's GRE study book, a list of veterinarians to call for shadowing hours, a pile of paperwork for my research project, a stack of unpaid bills, and a bottle of Excedrin Migraine.
I deliberately stayed home from church tonight to get work done. Now I wonder why I didn't go, seeing as said work is NOT getting done after all.
I fully realize this post probably makes little sense. My apologizes, but I'm running on two hours of sleep and would really, really like an Amaretto Sour. Actually, an Amaretto Sour and David Bowie in "Labyrinth" sound very good to me right now, although I really don't know what the two have in common, except that both sound really tasty. Rowr.
I am ending this post now before I hurt myself.Labels: future, spazz, vet med
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